I left all my burdens at the cross

I come from Belgium and I am 18 years old. I came to visit the mission in February 2020 and by God’s grace I can still be here.

I come from a difficult home situation. In one year my family completely fell apart. After all that happened, I was about to lose my faith. We live in the middle of a city with all its attractions and worldly pleasures. I had my friends and I was planning to start studying. In short, I took my life into my own hands and didn’t ask the Lord what HE thought of my decisions. In the meantime I still had the wish in my heart to visit Kwasizabantu mission. I wanted to see what God is doing at the mission and what He could do in my life.

When I first arrived at the mission, I felt like nothing was left of me. I felt lonely, sad and was caught up in bitterness and anger. Why is God allowing all this in my life? Is there still a reason for me to live? I felt like I didn’t have anything to offer because I had lost everything anyways. I began doubting His omnipotence and presence. By that time, I started reading a lot in His Word. I begged Him to reveal His works to me and to heal me.

It is amazing how God can change things. How He can change a human heart. I could speak to a counselor, confess my sin and make my life right with God again. Supported in prayer I could leave all my burdens at the cross. Bitterness and distress were replaced with immense joy and gratefulness and the knowledge that, even if I still don’t know what my future brings, I know He holds it in His hands and He has a perfect plan for my life. God taught me that, if I follow His plan, He will take care of anything that happens. As is written in 1 Peter 5:7 Cast all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.

And Psalm 94:19 In the multitude of my thoughts within me thy comforts delight my soul.

I enjoy being on the mission. Every day is special and enriching. I had the chance to help in different families and also in the missions kitchen. I discovered a whole new culture with its traditions and specialties and met amazing and wonderful people during this time.

Currently I have the privilege to assist the missions restaurant team. Helping there means a lot of fun. In a fantastic atmosphere, people work together in love, patience and respect for one another.

On this mission, I feel at home. I wish more people in the state I was in before, could come to this place to discover what I discovered, to be spiritually healed like Jesus healed me. To Him be the glory.

Fanny Swolfs